|Kenny’s Raspberry Bites #2|: Saturn Return and TCC update #2
- Kenny Isibor
- Sep 10
- 2 min read
Updated: Oct 4
Hey Siri, play "Deeper Well" by Kasey Musgraves
~When I turned 27, everything started to change~
My Saturn Return Begins
The day had finally come, my Saturn returned. On August 26th, 2025, I had officially turned 27.
I woke up early that morning and decided to walk around the neighborhood while listening to “Deeper Well” by Kasey Musgraves.
I couldn’t help it, but at some point, I felt warm tears slowly run down my face as the wind picked up. I quickly grabbed my sunglasses from my sports bra and put them on to hide the tears.
An elderly couple, wearing matching powder-blue workout tops, walked their chocolate-brown Yorkie down the street, its tongue hanging with glee. They smiled and waved at me as I wiped my tears. Embarrassed, I quickly waved back at them and cleared my throat.
“How are you today?” I said, trying to mask the quiver in my voice.
“We’re good? And you?” The elderly woman said.
“I’m good too.” I nod.
But, I wasn’t good
Truth is, I had been feeling out of sync with my life for years, but for some reason, on my 27th birthday, I just sort of lost it. It’s not that I’m afraid of getting older (I actually enjoy aging, oddly enough), it’s that I realized I was afraid of living a life that didn’t feel like mine.
I had tried to gain control over my life for years, but I didn’t realize that by doing this, I was unconsciously tangling myself in a web of my own creation.
Looking back, I don’t think the tears were from sadness, discontent, or anger at my circumstances.
They were tears of acceptance and release.
On the first day of my Saturn return, I decided to let go and let be.
Toni, Coltor, and the Comet: update #2
I have been writing Toni, Coltor, and the Comet on and off for about a year.
Listen,
I know! I know! For some reason, I’ve been finding it hard to sit down and write this piece.
Writing takes not only a lot of discipline, but also a whole lot of emotional energy. Since I had been running on empty emotionally for a while, I couldn’t get myself to sit down and write the damn thing.
But don’t worry. I will finish this piece, and Chapter 6 will be out in September 2025.
Stay tuned!
-Kenny
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